Zen Spot #62 -- Mindfulness, meditation and the violence of depression February 3, 2018 00:05

The blackness

There is a monster living inside me that, when it rears its head, eats my soul. It is a police baton jammed into my solar plexus. An anvil eased gently onto my chest, like a frog slowly boiling in a pot of water. Sleep is the only reprieve. Awakening to the fact that death has not collected me prompts thoughts of how to hand myself over with as little pain as possible.

America

I hold the belief that capitalism, and the relentless pursuit of profit, has created a culture that can break one’s spirit. Long ago, we passed the point where the human mind can continue to function effectively when bombarded relentlessly. And it's not just me. Millions return home broken after a full day of work. That millions of others are unaffected means nothing.

Like the explosion of a car engine driven with the gas pedal pushed all the way to the floor for fifty miles, some people implode. Cogs are chewed and spit. Cheek bones lie on the sidewalk with grit embedded in flesh. Blood flowing. 

Research

Clinical research has proven this biological tipping point. When reached, it becomes virtually impossible to recover without medication. That which looks like a character defect or laziness or self pity is actually a pathology that requires medical intervention. 

This is our time. These are our choices. Despite the science.

Buddhism and the science of the mind

I discovered the Eightfold Path in part because of the violence. My mind has been severely compromised when the monster found its way in. The blackness is deep. Mindfulness, truth be told, is not enough. It is one tool in a toolbox. 

Study helps. Making time to practice is critical. Endorphins, created by exercise, work wonders. Improved choices contribute to peace. I avail myself of all science.

Zen Spot

Wherever you find yourself, if the depression comes — or returns — take the medication. As you improve, and you will improve, take time to study. Exercise. Make choices in your best interest. Be kind to yourself and others.

And believe.

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What are The Four Noble Truths?

  1. The truth of suffering
  2. The truth of the origin of suffering
  3. The truth of the cessation of suffering
  4. The truth of the path to the cessation of suffering

What is The Noble Eightfold Path?

  1. Right view
  2. Right intention
  3. Right action
  4. Right speech
  5. Right livelihood
  6. Right effort
  7. Right mindfulness
  8. Right concentration

What is a Dharma Wheel?